It seems as if things have lately taken a turn for the worse…& I don’t know how to make it better. It seems like people have been out to get the things I care about most for no good reason. I just want it all to end. I don’t know how to stop the judgement, the ridicule, or how to talk to people about it.
I hate asking for help. It is something I consider a weakness. I am at the point where I need to be weak & I need someone to help me. It feels like I can’t trust people anymore. I just need John here so I can sit down, unload, get a bear hug, & move on. I haven’t seen that kid since Thanksgiving and I feel that if I saw him, everything would be better. He is the only person I can have a conversation with without saying anything & know 100% that the both of us are on the same page.
I know prayer will help. I will pray. I just want it all to get better sooner rather than later. I want to be care free again. Ultimately, I think what I need most is Appalachia…and John.
